This is how a heart breaks.

So I know that I promised that my next post would be a detailed list of goals. I'm working on it, I will have it done before I go to work tomorrow, but I just need to vent for one little second.

I had my heart broken today. The boy I've had a crush on since I was 9 years old proposed to his girlfriend over the weekend. I've known since high school that I never had a chance with him, but in a sense he was my first love and I can't help but hurt a little. And cry a little. I'll get over it, I'll be fine and I'm still very optimistic about my goals etc, I just had to tell my loyal bloggers who would understand. You never forget the first person who captures your heart for whatever reason, and you can't help but hope just a little. Until they get engaged.

The Summer of Happiness

I can't believe that my 30 Day Blog Challenge is over! I've had so much fun doing it and I really enjoy blogging. But now the problem is, what to blog about? My life tends to be fairly boring and sometimes I forget that people don't want to know certain details of my life. If you have been following my blog, particularly before I started my blog challenge, you know that I have been struggling lately with being content with who I am, where I am, what I've been doing, and moreover being happy. I have a wonderful friend who recognized my struggles and sent me some inspiration. What she had to tell me and the book she sent me really made me look at things and once again I am evolving as a person. Chelsea's inspiration as well as the events of my bestie getting baptized have really made me remember what is important in life. Because of this I have decided to implement some changes in my life in order to make myself happy. I'm calling it "The Summer of Happiness" and I plan to use my blog to keep myself accountable for my goals and to hopefully inspire other people to be happier as well!

First things first: Who am I?
I've realized my biggest problem has been that I have been trying so hard to fit in and like things that I don't actually like, that I have been making myself unhappy and trying to convince myself that I like things I don't actually like. For the past week I have been trying really hard to implement the rule of "Be Farrah." If people can't respect me for who I am, likes and dislikes, then they aren't really my friends. And the friends that I have now, I know will love me no matter what. And you know, being myself and made me feel so much better and my friends are still my friends! WHOA!!
Examples:

• I am a tomboy. Always have been, always will be. I don't really like girly things like makeup, fingernail polish, doing my hair, super cute shoes, girly clothes, shopping, etc. I've tried so hard to convince myself that I do like those things because I am a girl, but you know what? I like wearing tennis shoes, my hair in a ponytail, little makeup, being active, burping, laughing out loud, t-shirts, getting dirty, and hanging tough. That's me, and I'm ok with that. Yes, I have feminine qualities and I can act like a lady, but I am who I am and I like what I like and I like being a tomboy!


• I'm a tease. Sometimes I forget that teasing is inappropriate in certain situations, but humor is a huge part of my nature and I love being silly, making a fool of myself, cracking jokes, and seeing the humor in every situation. I have often been afraid of what people will think of me when I make my sarcastic comments so I would often stay quiet, but you know what? I come up with some pretty funny stuff! I'm loud and proud!


• Contrary to popular belief and my body type, I'm fairly naturally athletic and have always loved being active. In jr high and high school, the group of friends I hung out with weren't really into sports and because I was fairly insecure, I didn't want to play sports by myself, so I stopped playing them all together. I miss it now and it's one of my biggest regrets. I want to become active again and play sports, particularly softball!

I already have quite a few goals that I want to accomplish this summer and I'm so excited! Even though it might seem selfish for me to be focusing so much on myself, I don't see it that way. When I'm trying to make myself happy, it's so much easier to make other people happy! My goal is to post at least twice a week about the progress of my goals. My next posting will be a detailed list of those goals so you can all hold me accoutable! Also, if anyone would like to start some group goals, let me know! I'm willing to have all the help and support I can get! And if I can help you be happy too, then it will make it that much more worth it. :)

The book that started the inspiration! THANK YOU CHELSEA!! I highly recomment it to anyone and everyone!

Day 31

Day 31 - A photo of me today and three good things that have happened today.

#1 - It's my daddy's birthday!! Happy big 5-2 Dad!!

#2 - I finished the fantastic book I started yesterday! No Limits: The Will to Succeed by Michael Phelps. Loved it.

#3 - I got to spend a few hours with my family!

Day 30

Day 30 - Something I could never get tired of doing.

I will never get tired of laughing. I love to laugh, I love to make people laugh and I love to be silly. I love to do the unpredictable, I love to crack jokes and I love to be sarcastic. I go by the belief that laughter is the best medicine!

Farrah + dangerous objects = you should probably stay at least 20 feet away.

I love trying to climb through spaces I obviously won't fit! While Lisha is touching my bum!

Day 29

Day 29 - My biggest pet peeve.

There really aren't that many things that really peeve me to the point of not being able to stand it. I'm very tolerant and easy going and try my best to see the good in people. But there is one thing that I do not have a tolerance for and that is dishonesty. Don't lie to me. Don't lie about me to others. Don't lie about yourself and make up excuses. Lying creates distrust and is just plain low. It shows that liars have no character and no class. Tell the truth, even if it's hard because then you never have to wonder what stories you told people and tell more lies to cover your previous lies.

Day 28

Day 28 - My favorite movie.

The Princess Bride has been my favorite movie since I was a kid. I used to watch it over and over and over and over and drive my family nuts! I still watch it quite often and it never gets old! Pretty sure I could quote the whole thing by heart.

"Never go in against a Sicilian when death is on the line! A-ha-ha-ha!! A-ha-ha-ha!! A-ha-ha-ha--"

Day 27

Day 27 - A picture of me last year and how I've changed since then.

Oh my, how I have changed. I've come to realize though that we as people are constantly evolving by the people around us, by the events that happen and the choices we make. One year ago, I had just found out I was selected for the nursing program at CEU for 2010-2011 school year. My time as an ambassador was winding down and I thought I was ready for all the new experiences that were about to come my way. I was feeling pretty good about life. I was nervous for all the changes, but I was so excited. Wow, how things changed...

Last year at Eagle Frenzy. I met the magician, Dan Sperry, that had done part of the night's entertainment.