And the result is....FINALLY!!

At long last...After two months of waiting, I finally heard from the nursing department. I think I'm more relieved that my life finally has direction again than I am about the actual result. Anyway, for the 2010-2011 school year I will be an LPN student in CEU's nursing school! I am so excited and really scared at the same time. It's been such an emotional roller coaster of a day. Especially since I knew the letter was sitting in the mail box at my parent's house this morning and I was stuck in lab for far too long before I was finally able to open the dang thing! I feel really good about the result however. I was beginning to doubt, but as soon as I opened that envelope and read my acceptance, I had the overwhelming sense that this was what was meant to happen. The timing is right, and nursing is indeed the career field meant for me. It still hasn't quite hit me yet...This weekend is so busy and full that I don't think I'm going to be able to fully grasp the situation until I have a few calm moments in my life. But for now, I feel pretty dang awesome.
Thank you so much to my parents and friends for supporting me! Espcially Carrie, V2, Rach, Ashton, Katherine, the Ambassadors, and Dr. B and Terry for being awesome references. But especially thank you to my bestie K-Dub, For just being supportive and always being here when I need it most. And for being there with me in what I feel was a life changing moment, and believing in me when I couldn't believe in myself. I don't know what I would do without you, and I'm so glad you were able to be there to share in my triumph!

It's going to be a long and rough road, but I'm ready and am facing the challenge head on! Let's do this shiz!

Still Effing Waiting...

The mail once again lacked a letter from the nursing department telling me what I'm doing for the next year of my life. But that's ok, I'll only be gone all weekend and unable to open it until Saturday night. That is, if it gets here before then...

Still Waiting...

Still no word from the nursing program. No biggie, it's only been two months and registration for fall starts tomorrow.

You guessed it...

Epic fail!
The massive blog post about spring break is still sitting in my drafts and isn't much longer than it was a few days ago...oops. I really had no time to do anything this weekend. Or so it feels like.
But once again, I just feel like blogging, so here goes:
Today has been a royal pain. I'm still waiting to hear from the nursing program, and I'm beginning to freak out a little bit. Either way I'm completely freaked out. I don't know what I want to do anymore. On the one hand, let's do this shiz. Get me through the program, I'm so done with school, with Price, with my life where it is at this point in time. On the other hand, I'm not ready! I still have classes to finish that I don't want to do at the same time, I don't know if I can do this!

What am I doing with my life?!

I made an alternate plan today and I don't know if I like it, but I don't see a whole lot of other doable options. I registered for summer and fall classes as if I hadn't made the nursing program. I also turned in my application for a student government position and signed up for an interview. I really wish I knew where my life is going next year. I'm sick of being stuck in this rut.

I don't understand

So it has been more than a month since I have had the time to post a blog. Far too long. I feel like so much has happened, and yet when I try to write it all down, it seems like not very much at all. Maybe it's just all in my head...Basically I have been waiting for the time to write this huge epic blog about my huge epic spring break trip with two of my besties. It's been sitting in my drafts since the day after we got home and I am going to finish it this weekend dang it!!
On another note, I have felt the need to sit down and write out some feelings I have been having, especially this past week. It seems like I always have extreme emotional weeks, good and bad, with a lot of variety. This week has been a week of deep thinking and wondering what the heck I am going to do with my life. Mostly I've been freaking out because I am still waiting to hear from the nursing program. It's been almost two months since I submitted my application and I'm not very patient. When I submitted, I felt confident that I would get in without a problem. Now I've had way too much time to stew over it and I'm not so sure anymore. And suddently I've been approached by two very close and trusted individuals in the very recent few days asking me to move away from Price with them if I don't get into nursing school this next year, to experience something new and just work for awhile. I must say the idea of moving away is very exciting and appealing, but I don't know if I'm ready to uproot myself from my hometown just yet. Another option that has been brought to my attention, and I'm taking steps to accomplish. I'm applying for several student government positions for next year to help occupy my time if I should decide to stay and go to school next year if nursing is denied me. The third option scares me the most. Actually getting into the nursing program. It's so rigorous and heaven knows I lack a lot of self discipline needed to get through it.
I feel like I'm at a point in my life that I stand alone. No one can help me make the next few decisions I make in life except for the higher power, and it's going to affect everything. I feel like my world is in shambles simply because I could go any different path in the next three months and I don't know which one is right. It's times like this that I miss more than ever the one person who loves me no matter what, is totally non-judgmental of my weaknesses, and is willing to let me cry on her shoulder in my worst moments. My mom. It's hard to accept that she can't help me make my decisions anymore. She can listen, offer advice, but ultimately, it's up to me.